Blah!

     My title says it all...BLAH!!!  That's how I feel tonight.  I should be all rested and relaxed since I just spent the last week off work and traveled to Orange Beach for my 29th Birthday. It was a lot of fun and really relaxing....I wish I could just win the lottery and buy a place on the beach. I promise to sill volunteer if I win ;)  Going out of town for me means I go completely off my diet and and I just quit trying to eat even the least bit healthy.  Then I beat my self up for doing it because I know that I will feel like crap afterwards.  Its is something I struggle with every. single. day.  I know I will struggle with over eating for the rest of my life, I just have to learn to manage it and control it. To not let it control me,  It feels like an addiction, the desire is so strong for me to eat that chocolate cake or those french fries that I can't stop thinking about it until I eat it. It's horrible. I will do good a day then the next day do bad. Will my cycle ever stop??
       I have to go back to work tomorrow. I am kinda dreading it but I am looking forward to getting back into my normal day to day routine.  I do better with eating, exercising and just everything when I am in a routine.  I am disappointed in myself  to tell you that I don't think I reached any of my goals for August. I have to quit making excuses.  The reasons I tell myself I can't do this or I can't do that..they are all just excuses.  They are not actual legitimate reasons that are preventing me from waking up early and  exercising, or eating they way I know I should. 
      Since I had today off also I decided to cook a big batch of the veggie taco stir fry that I like and made my lunch for the rest of the week.  My plan is to eat a shake with spinach, almond milk, banana, and Ice in the morning, eat my oatmeal for mid morning snack, my stir fry at early afternoon lunch and then supper.  Not sure if I have mentioned this or not but I have recently tried to stop eating meat, I would like to eventually go vegan but for right now it is vegetarian.  I'll explain the change in my eating in a later post though.  I will also try to start posting more pics. I took some today but can't find the cord I need to connect my camera to my computer. Maybe I should check my 2 1/2 year old's toy box??  Well, i'm gone to bed.  Thanks for listening.