Viscious Cycle

It has been a while since I last posted.  The holidays, my two year old, my job, trying to fit in my workouts, has left my time somewhat limited.  But blogging more was one of my goals for this year.  I have started Jamie Eason's Live Fit program. I kinda tweak it for myself however, and shhh...I still do some cardio. No too much, maybe 20-30 min at least 3 times weekly.  I can really tell a MAJOR difference in the way I feel when I eat clean. I have so much more energy, it's amazing. But.. I still want those bad foods sometimes. I think it is something I will always struggle with. I can't make the desire go away. I know it's bad for me, I know I will regret it after I eat it, I know it's not going to do my body good, I know that I would have to do the elliptical for 25 min. to burn of that one bite of junk, but yet I still want to eat the bad stuff!  Why!?!  I have tried to stop and make myself realize the times when I am eating when I am not hungry. Most of the times it is because I am bored, frustrated, or overwhelmed. I can do so good during the week, but the weekends are just horrible, I don't think I have ever had a good weekend of eating clean or dieting. Like today I ate some cheeze-its, then some peanut butter on some animal crackers, and then we went to eat at the Mexican restaurant and I ate chips and queso...gah!  SO now I am sitting here regretting it, thinking it was not worth it. Which makes me just want to eat more because I feel like, well, I've already blown it completely, might as well and make it worth it. It then the cycle just repeats itself I hope that if I blog my daily meals and exercise maybe it will make me more accountable and knowing that I have to report it on here will make be think twice before I put it in my mouth. 
             In other news, my sweet baby girl turned 2 on Jan 4. And we have just overcome out first case of strep. Wednesday night she started running a really high temp. We finally got her fever to go down and they wanted me to bring her right it when I called her doctor's office the next morning.  We had just been there 2 weeks before because she had a virus that was causing her to run fever (although not as high as this episode) and she had to get retested for strep, the flu, and got her finger pricked again.  Today, the highest her temp got was 99.7, so I think we have turned a corner now. 
           I have done absolutely nothing today, which means I will have to really make up for it tomorrow. I plan on getting up early, going for my run (hoping to get around 4.5 miles) doing some laundry, doing the dishes, prepping some food for the week, and planning my meals. I have my oats soaking right now for in the morning. Well, hopefully I will be able to report a good day of eating clean tomorrow night!! night night!